Diary of a useless man (Part 2)

Note: FInal entry of Jay’s diary is 11/12/25 after Zishan’s Thailand trip with Alan.

Current entry is dated 18/11/25

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Diary of a useless man, is a progressively updated diary of a man whose wife is cheating on him. Follow Jay as he reveals his wife’s indiscretion to the whole internet.

Part 1 here

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7/11/25

Friday 3.40pm

My wife message me already. Friday sure jam one the checkpoints, so they leaving early. She sent me a picture, a selfie with other colleagues. They are not in Alan’s car, maybe it’s done on purpose.

Anyway, the boss is also joining, they will be taking 2nd checkpoint. They will be going to Eco Botanic area for dinner, before heading to the hotel at Sunway Big Box area.

6pm, i just loaded the things for final trip of the day. Send wine from Sims area all the way to Sentosa, out of the way from Sengkang but it’s ok, because i going to join my friends for some drinks and dinner.

Zishan sent me a picture of dinner spread, a lot of food, the usual boring stuff, no point sharing. They heading to massage after that. After that got another picture of her drinking bubble tea.

I was parking my van at the coffee shop at Jurong when my mother in law called me.

MIL : Jay, Weekend Zishan not around, no need specially come over ok? We can settle our own dinner.

The question mark immediately appear in my head. Weekend not around? My wife going on Friday, Saturday will be back, What does she mean by Weekend not around?

I just play along and let her speak.

MIL : The old couch we call town council to bring down can already, don’t need to bring.

Jay : oh ok.

They have something they want to throw, and i was suppose to go help them dispose it over the weekend. My FIL wanted to do it but please la, at their age, they do this kind of thing, wait they injure themselves, end up also more work for us young people.

MIL : Zishan Sunday come back already ask her remember call us ok?

Jay : ok can…

Why got conflicting dates?

My wife tell me SAturday coming back, but she tell her mother Sunday coming back?

Is this mis-communication or what?

I never think much of it and went to join my friends.

8.30pm

Coffee shop.

I also don’t know how to describe the setting, i not good with words but you know la. Picture a typical coffee shop with the smoking corner, then 1 group of people sitting at the extreme end, smoking, drinking.

No Beer girls, only beer aunties. We like that spot because why? Free illegal parking. We all park by the side of the road, can see the car. Secret spot, i’m not sharing.

There’s 5 of us. Me, delivery driver, i consider myself my own boss. Aaron, also delivery, but he do for bread company, go around restock vending machine one. Beng, PHV driver, Charlie, PHV driver, Daryl,warehouse manager, title sounds damm good but is just a fucking storeman.

What you expect? You see my pattern, you think i drink beer with VP from banks and CEO at Dempsey is it? Of course is coffee shop la, no GST, no service charge. Order friend baby sotong and prawn paste chicken from the Tze char store and chit chat till late, you tell me is this not the life?

8 plus, friday night, peak period, what the fuck is 2 PHV drivers drinking instead of driving? They are fucking slackers. Everything complain,complain. Everything must blame someone. I know i’m also like that most of the time but i think i’m still better than them by a notch. If you are young, want to party, don’t la. you never know if you get some fucker like Beng or Charlie. They drink beer till late, then want to cheong nightclub area to pick up girls. Really is asking for trouble one. Anyway, this update is not to talk about them. I myself already cannot make it, i should not talk so much about others.

Men our age meet up, the conversation topic is very standard one. Like army like that.

We start with how are you? ho seh bo?

Then we start with the bragging first.

Always must brag and stroke ego. Beng brag about wacking 1 fare $87 from Airport to Jalan Buroh the other day, then the ang moh gave $100, keep the change. Charlie brag he kena Vivocity, cross bridge into Sentosa only, $50, keep the change. Then me? I also need to say something right?

Say what? cannot be say my wife is letting a property agent fuck, my wife got free condo pass to swim anytime she wants right?

I brag about my record for the month of October. Single day, $430 nett.

Don’t look down on blue collar brother, we earn more than a lot of white collar worker.

1 x dryer and 1x washer from Serangoon garden to Old holland road. I 1 person load and settle. Is not i brag i strong, got technique one. With the right trolley, and you some slight modification with metal tracks for a ramp, you can do wonders. That one job, cross 140 already after minus all the fees. That’s only in the morning before 11am. By the time i decide enough at 7pm, i also shock at my own record.

So after bragging is what? Need to say something bad about your life so others won’t get jealous. Some say body start to ache here and there, some say health checkup results not good. Lan par la, we smoking and drinking, the on the other hand talk about health checkup, if this is not irony, i don’t know what is.

From greetings, to bragging, to bad news sharing, then it’s time to curse the government. Usually someone will start, this time is Daryl. Then we take turns lor. Scold the governemnt, everything they do is wrong, everything is expensive.

Then to wrap up the night, start to talk about KTVs, girls, where got pretty new babes for happy endings.

10.30pm

Beer auntie clear our table, we got more beer, but because it’s late, past timing, need to hide somewhere. I called my wife to check on her.

Zishan picked up immediately, like 2nd ring

Jay : Dear…all ok?

Zishan : mmmh…

Jay : where are you?

Zishan : mmmh..room already…

Jay : Hello?hellow ?

I don’t know whether is it because of the reception due to roaming or what, a bit patchy. 2025 already still this kind of shit reception.

Then i stepped away from table and i video call my wife.

She immediately reject my call.

I suddenly got that si bei hot feeling again. She reject my video call? Why? she got something to hide?

Or is she in the room with Alan?

She msg me ask me why i video call her.

Jay msg : Cannot hear you on the phone properly.

Then i just waited. I can see she’s still online on whatsapp, but she never reply. Then i saw she’s typing, but no message.

So i wait. and i wait.

At least a full minute before she reply say call me later.

What the fuck?

10.30pm, in hotel already? Cannot call me?

Cannot call her husband?

Is it because Alan is fucking her, doggy halfway?

I went back to table and the guys tease me i still need to report to my wife.

Jay : Why? jealous is it?

Beng: Ya, your wife is fucking chio…if she work KTV i confirm hang her flower.

Jay : fuck you…

I can feel my erection getting hard thinking about what my wife is doing. I drink, wait, look at phone, then at 11pm, my wife finally called me.

She say just now talking to colleagues.

Ya right. I pretend ask her how is the room, take some pictures and video to show me, she say ok.

Zishan : Room not bad, next time we can come for staycation.

It was a short conversation, then she say she tired, already, going to hang up.

Jay : ok goodnight…

Zishan : goodnight…

I haven press hang up. I waited for her to hang up, then i heard her say something.

‘He’

Then the phone disconnect.

Unless she talking to herself, there is definitely someone else in the room with her. Who else?

Jaytheuselessman

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8/11/25

Saturday 12.15am

We drink until midnight, and my lazy friends decide to close shop go home sleep. Charlie have not even cover rental for the day, but he’s those kind that don’t give a fuck. I tell you, if i put his real name, sure got a few car rental company know him. He already blacklist until cannot blacklist.

Beng is still not too bad, he is those cannon fairy, like to talk big, brag a lot, but end of the day, he is family man more or less. I can’t say he 100% saint, but i think 95% cannot run. He drink and smoke, but he never once play girl. At least not that i know of.

I’m different, i like to pretend i’m a saint, talk like i’m fucking holy, but i cannot resist temptations.

When i’m on PIE back from Jurong, the road all clear. Window down, left hand on steering, right hand hold one cigarette, the wind in my face. I feel like some lead actor in those Hong Kong movie. At the exit where i can choose to hit KPE and go back Seng Kang or slide right to Sims, i fucking went right, and went to Geylang.

I damm hot thinking of my wife in JB with Alan. I need to release. To be honest, i don’t usually do this, i mention before i save this kind of trip for special occasions, but i really cannot take it. I hit Lorong 14 first, then Lorong 16, walk into the legal houses, look at the girls, all cannot, not to my cup of tea. Then at Lorong 18 i saw a girl, the side profile, damm close to my wife the feel, but she got a bit of buck teeth, wah that one i cannot. No feel at all. Lorong 20 also no one caught my eye, i feeling damm frisky and itchy already. I also donno what is wrong with me, in the end, i just feel frustrated.

Horny, cannot find someone suitable, angry because my wife is in hotel with another man. In the end, i wander around Geylang, smoke another few cigarette then i reached SengKang at 2.30am

Shower, and decide to snoop through my wife’s things. Drawer, nothing much, not as if she will leave anything lying around. Laundry basket, no feeling to do anything.

4am, i still cannot sleep. Toss and turn, just feel very uncomfortable. Then without realising it, i finally knocked out.

I woke up at 9.30am, and quickly ate some breakfast.

By 10.30am i’m on the road, 1st job from Punggol to Toa payoh. Then you know what?

Nothing. Even if have something, my fingers not fast enough.

Jobs can come, but it doesn’t mean you 100% get it. Sometimes 2 or 3 others may be swiping for the same job.

It’s a fuck up saturday for me because by 5pm, after taking away rental and petrol for the van, i only made $37.

Then how? Suck thumb la. What to do. I’m frustrated of course but the saying goes, not everyday christmas. You think i cab consistently get 300 a day? That one really is cannon fairy already. Yes, i can get 300 plus on somedays, but somedays, is 100, sometimes, 200. Usually i average 160-190 on typical day after cost. MC how? fall sick how? strain back, sprain leg how? Simple, i go HDB the void deck, the very beautiful landscape there, i pull the grass and i eat.

But i am better than a lot of people out there, why? I got no stress, no commitment. No kids.

My HDB installment , another 7 years can finish, if i want to, maybe 5 years plus can finish then i relax already. Every few months got CDC, got GST vouchers, i one day eat 2 meals, $20 got change. Cigarette, if i buy legal one, cost more, if i accidentally bump into people who accidentally happen to have some parallel import kind, then it’s cheaper. You know i know la.

If not for the shit situation with my wife, i think my life is pretty good.

By 6.30pm, i’m back home, i gave up. Not a smooth sailing day, no point spend it out along the road. Go home rest better. I was about to call my wife to ask what time she is coming home when she called me instead.

Zishan : Dear…sorry…the jam quite bad, ermm…i think we staying another night.

Jay : huh? 1 more night?

Zishan :ya, but we will be out early Sunday morning, maybe reach home before noon.

Jay : oh ok…everyone all staying?

Zishan : ermm..ya…better than get stuck a few hours in jam right, just chill here better.

Jay : ok…then you be careful ya…

Zishan : ok…i got buy clothes for you…

Jay : ok…

I want to ask her more things, to talk to her more but she say she got to go. They going to have Korean BBQ for dinner.

Then the pieces tart falling in place. My MIL already knew she coming back on Sunday, that’s why ask us no need rush over. Zishan tell me she coming back on Saturday, probably because she’s afraid i will make noise if she spend the whole weekend in JB. My wife is playing me, playing on my stupidity. I should be angry but instead, i felt the erection again. I got hard suddenly and my heart start beating very fast.

She’s not only cheating on me, she’s banking on my stupidity, i should feel insulted, but i was aroused.

Base on James’ theory, this only means one thing, i’m confident about my relationship. That i’m considered a successful man. Only successful, confident men can accept this kind of relationship, of his wife sleeping with another man. The anger is one thing, the arousal is another, it’s seperate.

Or maybe base on most people’s theory, i’m just a useless man.

Someone who’s wife chose others instead of him because he cannot make it.

The more i think, the more i cannot sit still.

So i grab my van keys and i cheong over to my MIL place. At the carpark, i called her and told her i happen to drop something off nearby.

Jay : You all at home? I help you dispose off the couch.

I went up, and the couch is in the spare room.

I also stupid. Never think it through.

Just go up like that, how to casually walk into Zishan’s room and go through her things? For no fuck reason how to go into her room. I just fuck up my only chance to go over when she’s not around. In the end i end up throwing the couch while my FIL helped to hold the lift door open. I never get to go into my wife’s room.

If this is not stupid, i don’t know what is.

11pm

I’m drinking again, i msg my wife just to check in, ask if everything is ok.

Then to my surprise, i saw a video call come in. I answered and i saw her face, only her face, the rest is all super dark.

Jay : where are you?

Zishan : mmmhh…ergnhhh i’m in the massage place la…mmmh…

She extended her arm a bit then i saw the spa bed frame thing supporting the head, the kind you face down then people massage your back kind.

Jay : orh ok. so late still go massage.

Zishan :mmmh…ernghh..here nothing much to do …then is..ergnhh..ernghh…cheaper than Singapore also.

I don’t know why i get this weird feeling. Like the spa is a bit off.

I only see my wife’s face, overly bright, her eyes squinting a bit, then the rest of the place is very dark. The sound she make, also like a bit x-rated. I know massage will have some moans and groans but it just feels off.

Zishan : mmmh you going to sleep already? …mmmhh..mmhhh….

Jay : ya…

Zishan : ok…go and..ehnnngg…mmmhh…sleep…goodnight..mmmhh…

Jay : Hear you make this kind of sound, i very horny…

Zishan :mmhh…mmmhh…is it…haha…ok…good night…

Jay : dear wait…

She hang up.

What the fuck?

I try to reason and think of myself, i say this kind of thing, should be embarassing for her right if there is someone else in the room. Like another woman massage for her, then hear couple talk, she should ‘tsk’ at me, maybe get angry, but she didn’t.

Why never get angry?

Why she laugh?

Is it because is not another woman massaging her?

Maybe is Alan help her massage?

Meaning what? She video call me when Alan massage for her so she will feel more high, more excited?

Jay : aGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I think like this i end up hammering my pillow and bed, then i shout into my pillow. If not my neighbour sure will complain.

I’m super hard by then and i really need to release.

I went to the laundry basket, dig up her Thursday lingerie, what she wore to work. I put on my wife’s bra and wrapped her panty around my dick then i stand in front of the mirror.

Jay : aRGHHHHHHHHH!

I look at how stupid and ridiculous i look in the mirror, the combine with the pictures she took with Alan in Kranji, plus the swimsuit pictures. Less than one minute i shoot it all out, i shoot all into my wife’s underwear. Usually i will feel better after shooting out but not that night. My brains is like fried already. If i call SCDF, they come in, straight away will send me to IMH. I took out my wife’s swimsuit, that shiny one then i wore it.

Jay :ahhhhhhh…

The tightness, the way it hug my body, it just feels so good. Thinking about her getting fucked by Alan while thinking i am in the dark kept making my dick hard, soft, hard soft.

I don’t know what time but i eventually fell asleep.

Continue a bit into Sunday.

8.30am wake up, suppose to cheong for some jobs to cover a bit for lousy Saturday, but i just felt tired. Left home at 10am, saw my wife’s message, she is on the way back. SHould reach home before 12.

I got excited again, only do 1 job, cannot even cover van rental, then i rush back home.

I can’t wait to see my wife.

Jaytheuselessman

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8/11/25

Sunday

I see my timing, actually is ok. Along the way back, i saw another job so i detour and pick up. By the time i get back to Sengkang, it was 12.30pm.

Still haven cover my basic expenses for the day but fuck it, i just want to see my wife.

I was a bit shock when i go home because i can tell my wife has been back for a while already. Why? Because she damm fast.

Her overnight bag already unpacked, she showered, all lingerie washed and hanging up to dry. Even the clothes in laundry basket almost done in washing machine.

My samsung machine i use the wash cycle is about 1 hour 50 minutes type. There’s only like 10 minutes left, even for someone like me whos math is C5 all the way one i can count.

You tell me before 12, but actually is you come back so much earlier. Is it because you got something to hide ? Is it because you want to quickly wash all the clothes, the laundry, wash the stains on panty away? Wash away Alan’s cum?

Dustbin also, empty. Usually i bag and bring to the refuse outside corridor, but it was all settled. Zishan hair, freshly shampooed, almost dry chilling at the sofa.

Zishan : i bought clothes for you…

I saw a Padini brand bag, she took out 3 t-shirt, and 1 button down long sleeve shirt.

Zishan : go and try…

Jay : can fit la…looks ok.

Zishan : tsk…just put on and try…

I tried the t-shirts first, all ok. They fit me, then i put on the shirt.

Jay :I where got wear shirt one?

Zishan : you need some formal clothes also, don’t everytime t-shirt and berms.

Jay : this is so not my style.

Zishan : maybe got formal event or something can wear what, it’s on promo…

Actually, i’m very happy that my wife bought something for me, it tells me she still has me in her heart. But my brain suddenly switch again, like radio frequency gets interrupted. Suddenly i question why, why buy things for me? Why so nice to me?

Is it because she guilty?

She buy 4 top, because she let Alan fuck her 4 times? She let him shoot inside her is it?

I pull her and press myself against her.

Zishan : crazy ah…middle of the day.

Jay : I want to fuck…

Zishan :tsk…

Jay : i miss you a lot…

Zishan : is it? hehe. then?

Jay : I want to fuck la…

I unbutton the new top but she stop me. She just push me into the room and pull my shorts down.

Jay : ahhh…

She knelt down and push my legs apart, my cock was already throbbing hard. My wife held onto my dick and she smell first.

Zishan : tsk…got smell…go and wash…

Jay : ahhh…ok..

I quickly go bathroom and wash. She reminded me to pull back my foreskin and wash the inside also.

Then when i go back out, she comment about my pubic hair too untidy.

Jay : wah lau…then what you want me to do…

I already very hot, cannot take it already but she look like she purposely want to tekan me.

She asked me to trim my pubic hair.

I already so hard already, you ask me trim hair? If this is not trying to be difficult, i don’t know what is. But i just follow, because i want that blowjob. We may be married but i don’t get a blow every time.

Quick trim with scissors then i quickly come back out, she say something which make my heart pain and aroused.

Zishan : see…neater, can see more of your cock…looks bigger too.

What does this mean?

She think i’m small?

I’m smaller than Alan? Shorter? Thinner?

Now have to resort to trimming?

I got no time to even be angry before she grabbed my cock, then say it looks cute before sucking for me.

Jay : ahhhh…

Cute? what the fuck? Which man want his cock to be cute? I want to be fierce, not cute.

She suck and look at me, i totally cannot take it. Her tongue unroll my foreskin and keep slapping my tip until i feel like i want to pee. When i moan too loudly, she will smack me on my thigh, like asking me to keep quiet like that.

I can feel i’m cumming already, i thought she will blow me till i finish but she say her jaw aching already.

Jaw ache?

Ache what?

You say my cock small, then will cause your jaw to ache? Is it because the weekend you blow for Alan until Jaw ache?

I almost want to scream out loud.

But she surprised me again. My wife pushed me on the bed, and she strip, then she lower herself onto me.

Jay : ahhh..ahhhhhh…

She’s quite wet, i don’t know why, i slipped in easily.

Jay : arhhh dear i haven wear condom…i haven wear…ahhh

Zishan : shhh…ernghh..erhghh it’s ok…

Jay : No la…dangerous…dangerous…ahh..ahhh..i really going to shoot already…ahhh..stop..stop…

She never stop. She just grind onto me.

Jay : dear! what you doing! ahhhhhhhhhh

I want to push her off but i cannot control. Totally lose control and i can feel her clam my penis hard with her pussy. Then i released.

Jay : fuck..!fuck! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Zishan :mmmmh…why?

I was immediately horrified, i never felt so afraid before. I shoot into her raw.

She saw the expression on my face and she just shrug, ask me why the big reaction.

Something is wrong. Last time i never wear condom want to rub a bit, she also make noise. Now suddenly want me to shoot?

Why?

Weekend let Alan raw shoot inside her until she is guilty?

Or she afraid she get pregnant then want to use this as an excuse?

Jay :what is wrong with you! i haven wear!

Zishan : tsk! why you so big the reaction…i also can barely feel you coming, i thought you say only…

You know the stupid thing?

The dumbest thing?

We just fucked, and we can quarrel over it.

She thinks i’m over reacting, but am i?

This is too sudden.

The quarrel is not too major, but enough for her to get dressed without washing and leave the house. She shouted that she is going to buy lunch from Compasspoint, and she will get something for me.

I sit alone in living room and i really feel the mind fuck.

Am i wrong to over react or what? Or she really trying to hide something?

I shower, then went to hang up laundry. I suddenly saw clothes i don’t remember my wife wearing the week before, or packing for the trip. Those clothes come from where?

Tube top, spag top and one denim shorts. She never pack these. Then got one more t-shirt i never see before. The tube top and denim shorts are old one, but i confirm she never pack them, is it she got keep clothes in Alan’s car? Or maybe she got spare clothes at his place?

Thinking about it, my cock got hard again.

Then i went to count the bra and panties. There’s 2 additional panties for the week, even after counting for the stay in JB. If it’s new, can say she buy new, but they are old ones.

I also confirm she never pack those 2 panties.

I look at the top she bought for me and i wonder she ask me wear it is it because she want to fuck a man in shirt and pants. Not my usual loose t-shirt and berms.

I also donno why i went to dig and look at her passport. Maybe i just want to see the stamp. But while opening her passport cover, i saw something else.

It was a A4 paper, folded several times until very small, it was crumpled too. I unfolded it and realised it was an air ticket to Thailand.

She’s going Thailand and she never even tell me.

Jaytheuselessman

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9/11/25 – 10/11/25

Sunday to Monday

James wants me to explain my perspective about shooting inside my wife. Why am i so anal about it?

I want to clarify a few points, i like to shoot, which man doesn’t?

Last time when i first dated Zishan, she take pill, and i got shoot inside. When she stop the pill, sometimes when i shoot inside, either by choice or accident, we always go clinic, then get the day after pill. Plan B. First time a bit embarrassing, need to take queue number, pay for consultation, then sit through like some counselling session like that, then they give us the pill.

Now, i don’t shoot raw is it because i afraid to start a family?

I afraid i no money, cannot afford to raise a child?

I got money one ok.

I may not have CPF like many of you, no 13 month, no bonus, but i got cash.

My everyday account inside at least 7-8000. This one i use for daily expenses. Bills, utilities, S&CC bills, even my share of the HDB installment, all will cover from there. GIRO for insurance, basically everything that i need to use, ATM, the account always i keep steady. Inside got 7-8k. When i withdraw my earnings from the platform every week, it all go into this account.

This is my base. It never go below 7k for the past few years.

I also have fixed deposit. 30000.

I have another secret saving account, no one knows about, not even my wife. This is my coffin fund, i’m slowly building up. I’m confident i can reach 10000 by end of the year.

Don’t think blue collar worker no money, maybe my savings more than yours. If not for the renovation and downpayment for the flat, i will have more.

I know i don’t earn a lot compared to many of you, but i don’t spend a lot also. Mostly on food and cigarettes. If i stop smoking, i smelly save another 200 a month easily.

I also got gold chains, i have 5. Their price, at least 50% more already. The one i wear everyday is bought 2 years ago, 28gms with a small pendant.

If got child, i confirm i can afford to raise the child. Not enough? i work harder. I cannot cheong more meh? I cannot work longer hours? 10 hour cannot i wack 12, 12 cannot i wack 14. I can sell my gold, i can quit smoking.

It’s not about money. Money, as long as i can take hardship, i know i can earn. If my son or daughter want iphone, ipad, or whatever, i confirm can afford to buy for them.

Then why? Why i afraid to start family?

You know last time primary school, secondary school, fill in forms, then need to fill in parents occupations?

I don’t want my child go school fill in the form say the papa do delivery.

I know it’s nothing to be ashamed of, as least i’m not like some fucker go and scam people money, but it’s a mental barrier i cannot cross. I just don’t want.

I afraid my child go to school, compete with others, my father engineer, my father lawyer, my mother doctor. Then what will mine say? My father is useless, my mother sleeping with property agent is it?

It’s a messed up line of thought but this are the things going through my brain.

I know what you people are thinking next. Upgrade skills, skills future, go study, strive for more.

Lan par la.

You believe ah?

You think it’s that easy?

I’m a ah beng with a half baked diploma. No hope one. I don’t believe in the skills upgrading story. It’s not for everyone. Say maybe you play game, you already a knight, then you upgrade, from use 1 sword, to 2 sword, then you upgrade armor, upgrade horse. This 1 is possible.

I’m peasant leh. I digging soil in the field, you ask me upgrade to knight? ride horse? rescue princess? How is that possible?

I this kind of pattern i can also see through the bullshit. Skill future is just giving money to those people conducting the courses la. You mean you cannot see? I this kind of educational level i also can see. Government is giving money everyday, you have what it takes to take, you can be rich man, if you don’t, then you can only complain, like me.

You think i never try upgrading, learn something new?

You got go before or not these courses? huh? Reach there 9am, then spend 1 hour waiting for trainer helping people who cannot even login with singpass to sign attendance. Some of these old people cannot even change font size, don’t know how to reset singpass, simi lan jiao skill futures? I this kind of pattern, i go there also can help people do all these machiam i’m a trainer assistant already.

Class of 30, each one 500. That one class is how much already? 15k

8 hours class, 1 hour help you login singpass, reset password, sign attendance.

Good leh, 1.8k teach old people login, this kind of business why cannot do? I need half a month to earn the same amount, you start company 1 hour can earn this already.

Then why i talk so much, why i don’t open class?

Because i can only talk, cannot do.

You can do you go and do lor.

Of course not all the classes are like that, i got attend one is service own vehicle at workshop kind, change engine oil, etc, that one is useful. Practical skills. But some courses, KNN, roadside pull you sign up, wah lan eh, you know, i know la.

As long as you got pink IC, above your head got that $4000 floating sign. Everyone aiming for that money.

You tell me i’m wrong?

I also want to work in office, i also want to attend meeting, do zoom call, give presentation, but i know my own standard. I try to explain things, people will walk out.

So do i think i should bring a child out into this world to suffer? I can’t even speak properly to my own child.

I never talk about my parents, because they both in jail la. Then my child ask where is ah gong, ah ma ?

Then i say oh, when you 12 years old maybe can see them ?

My family is shit, my background is shit, my education, my attitude, everything is shit, my marriage is also shit, the government should give me award and additional subsidy for not bringing a new life to trouble them.

People service award got PBM, they need to give me PDB, Please don’t breed.

I don’t know why James want details like these, not even related to my wife. Sometimes i feel like punching him. He digs into a part of me i don’t want to share, but after i share, i honestly feel better.

These are things i don’t tell people.

I can’t say things like this to my friends, i can’t share this with anyone, but here, i’m faceless, no one know me.

Back to Zishan, after she buy lunch back, i apologise to her.

I admit i was a bit worked up, too many things in my mind already.

Knowing she spend the weekend with Alan, let him fuck don’t know how many times, i already jealous and angry but i can’t say anything. Then shoot inside her with all my worries, i really cannot handle the stress.

We talk a bit, i say sorry again, she also admit she a bit rude. We made up after, nothing much to share about that. On the surface, my wife looks like she forgave me, but i know it’s not that simple.

I can feel her anger, like she still buay song.

So what does she do? She need to get back at me right? She need to vent right? She need to let Alan poke her pussy again isn’t it.

Monday morning, i send her to Toa Payoh, she told me she is going to swim again before her menses start in a few days.

Inside my head, i was thinking, i hope it starts, if don’t start, then hong gan already.

Her menses dates always quite regular one, count count a bit, i can understand why she choose to go Thailand during then. It’s safe period, menses over, ovulation over, by then is already safe. Even if not, i bet she will get the plan B pill in Thailand, online says no need prescription.

Monday night.

8.45pm

I ended last job at Sengkang Hospital, just nice. Reach home at 9pm, shower, eat, then wait for my wife to come back from her swim.

10pm

Not back yet.

10.30pm

Not back yet.

11pm

I call her already, but no answer.

I start to get hard again thinking of what she is doing. Then 11.30pm, she say she on her way back, drag a bit because eating supper.

11.45pm

15 minutes can reach home, maybe she take helicopter, or maybe she already back but hiding at carpark with Alan to hanky panky.

Zishan : I dabao murtabak for you.

Jay : oh. thank you…

I see the packaging, i know the mamak is near Alan’s condo. I touch the packet, already cold. The curry also a bit cold. Must be left there for a while already. I just pretend not to notice and bring to dining table.

My wife go shower and i quickly go ransack her bag.

She did swim, got wet towel, her swim suit. i can smell the chlorine water. I dig more and i saw another smaller plastic bag, inside got bell sound.

Ya,bell, those small bell.

You know last time pager, then hang those small bell.

Then i saw what it was connected to. A single mini clamp. The kind you use on the nipple.

I feel blood rushing to my groin again at the sight of that thing.

I tried to find the other, but don’t have. There’s only one, maybe it dropped in there accidentally.

Means what?

What does this mean?

My wife not only swim with Alan?

She let him use a nipple clamp on her? The kind that when she walk or move, will have the ‘ling, ling, ling ‘ sound?

Maybe when he thrust hard into her, the bell will ‘ling,ling,ling’

I stare at the bathroom door and wonder if there were cases people die of heart attack.

Maybe i will die that way.

I just ate the murtabak and go to bed.

My wife took her time to dry her hair before climbing into bed.

I turn and hug her, pretend to touch touch a bit.

Actually i want to feel whether she wearing the sanitary pants.

She never wear, maybe never shoot inside, or she shower and wash up already.

Jay : dear…

Zishan :mmmh?

I want to ask about her trip but i chicken out. I want to see if she will tell me.

Zishan : what?

Jay : nothing…never mind.

Zishan : oh…dear…i got something to tell you.

Jay : ya?

Zishan : this Friday, got BBQ at my colleague’s place at THomson there, his condo. He close a good class bungalow…he hosting. invited everyone. you want to go?

I think with my cock i also know which colleague.

Jay : mmmh…you ok if i go?

Zishan : mmhh..why not? a lot of colleagues bringing family also…

Jay : ok…

She turn away, and i saw her smiling.

I really don’t know what she is thinking or what she is up to.

Friday.

Maybe you see news on Friday got stabbing at BBQ in condo, you agar will know what is happening.

Jaytheuselessman

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11/11/25

Tuesday

Wake up in the morning i feel my stomach a bit not good. End up i sit on the toilet bowl for almost 30 minutes. I’m not a toilet sitting person, when i do my business, i’m those go in, settle and that’s it. So sitting for 30 minutes is bad. Must be the curry from supper yesterday. I start to have crazy thoughts, is it my wife poison me?

She went off on her own first because i still need the toilet.

In out a few times, still don’t feel too good but i cannot wait already. My job got no MC, i can’t call HR and have someone cover me.

‘Then rest la, don’t go work!’

Since i’m my own ‘boss’, i can plan my own timing, it’s easy to assume that but things are not that simple.

I don’t work, i don’t make rental and cost for the vehicle that day, but it’s not about this. I always make sure there’s buffer for times like this. If i really don’t feel well, i will rest, i will even stop smoking.

However, today i already took jobs in advance. The app will prompt me when clients who ‘favourite’ my profile have new jobs. Meaning i’ve delivered stuff for them before, they like my work, i’m punctual, or they see me handsome. They favourite me, then subsequent new jobs, i get priority notifications.

There’s a home baker near my place and another lady doing clothes alteration. I accepted jobs from them the night before already, and i also got chat a bit with them everytime. A bit paiseh and not nice to cancel on them so situation like this, really is lan lan suck thumb, bite the bullet and go.

No appetite for breakfast, so just drank water and go.

From morning till noon, i can feel that stomach crunch feeling, like someone trying to squeeze my stomach. Damm uncomfortable. Go coffee shop toilet try to shit also cannot. Plenty of good jobs with decent payout that day, but i can’t cheong. About 5pm, i dropped off at Toa Payoh Lorong 1, then i ask my wife if she wants a ride home after work.

She say ok. I’ll just pick her up at 6pm. I turn into the carpark at HDB central there and waited. I haven ate the whole day, only water. So i went to foodcourt, bought a lotus soup and start drinking.

Pick wife up at work place and literally shit happens.

My stomach crunching, i thought drinking the hot soup will help but it made it worse. If you are on the road often, Toa Payoh entrance into PIE, from there want to filter out, go KPE exit that stretch, is always jam during peak hour one. The traffic is shit.

Jay : ahhhh…my stomach ache.

Zishan : tsk..then how? quick go out find toilet.

Jay : how to?

My van is like in the middle of a sea of cars and lorries. Speed is really like crawling. Jerk forward a bit, move 5 metre then stop.

I told myself i die also have to hold till reach home. I can just stop at the loading and unloading under my block and rush up. I felt the pain ease up a bit and i thought i can make it when i suddenly feel like farting. I should not have trusted the fart because it’s a wet fart. The moment it comes out, i knew i’m fucked.

Jay : ahhhh…shit…

Zishan : what?

Jay : I arghhhh…

I farted again.

It’s those kind when you start, then a bit hard to stop no matter how you try, somemore i’m driving.

The smell immediately fill the vehicle and my wife was cursing.

Zishan :oh my god what is wrong with you? you ok or not?

Wind down window and by then the hot air inside KPE keep rushing into the van.

I can feel the warm spreading in my underwear. By the time i reach loading and unloading, i ask my wife alight first, she rush up and open door get ready.

My stomach very painful, and have to alight slowly so i don’t drip shit all over. I hold onto the hem of my pant leg then take deep breath and ran to the lift. Lucky no neighbours, i go in press my level and i could feel the crunch again. Really is very painful.

Jay :ahhhhhhhh!

I run to my house the moment door open but i cannot already. I felt the squeeze once and i shit more into my underwear. Door and gate already open, i run into the common bathroom and i cannot even wait to remove pants, it just all come out. I never experience something like this before in my life, and i really thought my wife poison me.

The smell was so bad i almost fainted, i cannot even look at the state of my pants.

Jay : dear, give me a plastic bag!

My pants and underwear confirm is throw already. If i put into washing machine, my wife will straight away divorce me and become Alan’s mistress.

Clean up, shower, wash toilet, by the time i come out of toilet 45 minutes later, i feel like i going to die. Ate po Chai pill and go into bed to rest.

Zishan : you need to go doctor?

Jay : no need. just rest can already.

I just say only then i wet fart again.

Jay : shit! ahhh…

I realised i wet fart into my pants and a bit of shit come out. Then stain the bedsheet.

Zishan : wah lau…you better go doctor…who night like this how to sleep?

I feel very embarassed, really is no face. Wash up, change bedsheet and all then when i come out, my wife was ready to shame me further. I saw her giggling and texting.

Maybe she is telling Alan what happened to me.

Her useless husband shit in his pants

I don;t know why i suddenly get an erection. I can’t tell if seeing her smile excites me, or knowing she telling Alan i’m so useless turns me on.

Before i climb into be again, my wife pull me aside.

Zishan :wear this one…

Jay : huh? you crazy ah…this 1 for girls one.

You know what my wife want me to do?

She want me to wear the sanitary pants she wears when she has heavy period.

I refuse to, so embarassing and humiliating but she insists. If not i’m going to end up staining the bed in the middle of the night then we have to change bedsheets again.

Jay : but i’m feeling better already!

She don’t care, she already tore open one and got lower herself to help me. In the end,i held onto her shoulder for support and put my leg through.

Jay : ahhhh…

Maybe because i’m a pervert, but the moment i feel the elastic band go up my thigh, my entire body just shivered. The sanitary pants is not like a pad, it’s more like those disposable underwear, soft and fluffy with a cushy absorbent layer at the crotch, hugging my groin and asscheeks like a marshmallow. The feeling, fuck, the feeling is next level.

My wife looked very happy to see me in that state. Like the more useless i am, the happier she is. Maybe i’m thinking too much.

I’m rock hard but my bulge, against the hug of the sanitary pants, look so small, like it was barely there.

I want to put on pants but she just took them away. Like she wants to humiliate me like that.

Jay :my shorts…

Zishan :No need la, just go and rest. nobody see…

Jay : paiseh mah…

Zishan :Paiseh what? only me around…

I climbed into bed and i’m feeling damm horny by then.

I turn and hug my wife, pressing my bottom against her back, she ‘tsk’ at me and continue texting and scrolling on her phone.

That useless feeling hit me again.

She must be telling Alan how useless her husband is.

Low income, shit in pants, now got to wear diaper to bed. I grind myself against my wife and she turned around and say.

Zishan : why? still can use meh you like that?

I felt so insulted and aroused that i almost came into the sanitary pants.

My cock cannot use? Just because i got stomachache?

I can feel the throbbing but before my anger got time to build further, my wife turned around, put her phone aside and kissed me. Her hand reach down and pat my erection from outside the pants.

Zishan :shhh…late already…sleep…be a good boy…

She move herself a bit higher then right hand go under my neck, pull me close to her A cup breast and let me snuggle into her breast there. Her left leg go over me, then her left hand pat me on my backside like she is coaxing baby to sleep.

I smell her breast smell, they smell so good, they feel so soft, i like it when she hug me. Then i felt her hands moving and i can hear the haptic feedback of her phone behind my head. She was texting while hugging me.

Maybe she telling Alan she trying to make me sleep.

Trying to coax her shit in the pants husband not to disturb her.

I was too tired and i just knock out.

Jaytheuselessman

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12/11/25

Wednesday

I woke up with a fever. I know today earnings is confirm gone case. Initially i want to go work and at least cover the rental for the van but my wife scolded me.

Zishan : can you just rest at home or not, you short of that few hundred meh?

Then she say she will buy dinner back for me.

You tell me this is someone who don’t love me?

If she don’t love me, she will fuck care me already.

My wife dress up very nice today, i don’t know why. Maybe because she know her useless husband confined at home, cannot go around, she have more freedom to be daring.

She wore a yellow dress, like mustard colour, nothing too revealing, not that she has a lot to reveal. Then she put on makeup, then pair with Nike sneakers, white colour with some baby blue streaks. She looks cute and good, younger than her age for sure. I notice the time a bit late, and i remind her. She look at the clock while applying a bit of lip gloss then say ok.

She 7.50 am then leave home, which is a lot later than usual already. In the middle of the night, i wet fart twice, one of it got shit stain, so i no choice wake up and change into new sanitary pants. My wife ask me go and get more when i go buy lunch later because i use up hers.

I wait a bit then , i go down after her. I no need to think also know Alan coming to pick her. I can hear the BMW turning into the drop off. I can see another man waiting for his PHV car looking at my wife as she gets into Alan’s BMW. The door shut and the car left.

I went back home and i cannot take it, i need to PCC to release if not i will go mad. I went to look at my wife’s pictures and imagine her doing slutty things for Alan.

I imagine Alan kissing her, smelling her neck, pressing his face into her A cup breast. I imagine Zishan kneeling in front of him to blow him. I also imagine she bend over him while he driving to suck him. Then for the finale, i imagine Alan driving her to a cemetery at night, ask her go into backseat, lift up her dress then doggy her there.

Jay :ahhhhhhhhhhh!

I don’t want to just shoot out, i want to shoot with some form of intimacy. So i went to the laundry basket and took my wife’s worn underwear from the day before. Nothing special, just a black seamless panty. I wrapped the crotch area around my dick and continue to imagine those scenes.

Jay : ahhhhhhh!

Then i shoot everything out.

After the pleasure, comes the pain. If i leave her underwear like that, when she finds out, i sure get fucked by her. So i have to wash it.

Imagine this, a grown man like me, washing my wife’s underwear at home while she goes out to work to make money. I cannot explain why but thinking about it like that makes me horny again. I am really going mad already, maybe i need to see a doctor.

I wonder if i go polyclinic, take a number and tell the doctor how i feel, will they just call the police to arrest me or not.

I washed my wife’s panty, make sure it’s clean, i even smell to make sure no smell before i hang it up to dry. Later i must remember to put back into the basket.

I take 2 panadol and just lie down on bed to scroll tik tok. After a while, i read rubbish on James’ site. I am a premium subscriber for a long time. I’m tier 3, the highest tier. I can download any shit from his site anytime, read, once done, i delete. Next time want to read i’ll download again. Like that i don’t need to worry about my wife finding out what i’m reading on my phone. Once she made a big fuss when she saw sammyboy on my website history, from then on i told myself to be more careful. Must wipe mouth. Lucky she saw the history of stories i read, not the KTV and massage centre where i try to find happy ending.

Lunch time, i feel a lot better, but i start to feel horny again. I ask James whether the stories i ask him to write is ready. He says no, he’s fucking slow. I don’t know why he takes so long. i’ve seen him write on his laptop in person before, we having coffee, he thought of something, then he started writing for 15 minutes without a word. His fingers, power. If he use that speed on his wife, she is the luckiest woman in the world. Honestly i don’t mind if he use it on Zishan. He can just stare at the screen, talk to the coffee server, and throw me an occasional look but his fingers never stop one. If he go gangbang, i bet he can multitask.

Anyway, I gave him 3 scenario, write a fantasy story about me peeping at Alan and Zishan. As in i watch them hanky panky.

1 is at swimming pool, i peep at them swim.

Another is i pretend i sleeping or sick, then my wife bring Alan back home to fuck because she is very horny.

Last one is Alan treat my wife like a slut, and use her body to make money so he can change bigger car.

Yes la, all fantasy, i like to imagine it sometimes but i cannot paint the full picture in my mind. So i ask James to help me write a short story about it.

I told him must write until when i read, it feels very real and will make me high one.

I know things like this won’t happen in real life, only in JAV, but i just want to imagine it happen.

4pm i feel a lot better, so i filter for jobs around Sengkang, Punggol and Hougang.

Made about $40 by 6pm and i quickly return home, if not my wife will scold me for going out.

Zishan come back about 7pm with dumpling noodles for me. She seemed to be in good mood.

Zishan : nah…for you.

Jay : huh ? why keep buying things for me?

It’s those xmas set gift from bodyshop. Got shower, lotion etc.

Zishan :buy things for you still want to complain. you got buy anything for me?

I smile and tried to hug her but she pull away and go shower.

I ate and i could feel my body regaining strength. By tomorrow i should be able to cheong and regain my lost earnings. The food is a bit salty, so i feel like eating something sweet.

Zishan : want to share acai bowl?

Jay : orh…i go and buy.

Zishan :tsk…just order grab la.

Jay : ok…

I place an order for a large bowl, my grab account is pay cash one, sometimes hard to get people to accept my order or grab ride. I never link my debit card, usually my wife is the one that does all the ordering. But i just try and order accepted.

I know pay cash very ley chey so i always try to make sure either i give exact, or the rider no need give me change. If just a few cents, i’m ok, no need change.

I short of some coins,so i ask my wife have or not.

I knocked on shower door she ask me go her wallet and take.

I take the coins and standby the money to pay by the door. I turn and look at my wife wallet, i thought i saw something a bit off. She is still in the shower so i go to her wallet again and i saw a card. Silver colour card. The moment i see, i know is confirm Alan sub a card for her to use.

Is American express. My wife’s pay is 3700 a month, she can have normal credit card, no issue. American express is atas one, how to afford? I take a picture then i go and google. Annual income is 150k

Crazy bo?

Where to find 150k to apply such card. How many people can earn 150k a year?

I hear the shower shop and i quickly keep the wallet.

I can feel my erection super hard again.

Alan give my wife a card to use?

Like that does that mean my wife is more than just a fling?

Not just a fuck buddy ?

Like that she is consider mistress? or how?

Meaning what? The things my wife buy for me, if she use that card, is considered Alan buy for me?

So he paying me to fuck my wife?

I feeling super hot, angry and horny at that moment. When my wife come out of the toilet, i went over to hug her. She hit me on the arm several times, scolding me crazy is it. She towel over her head, her hands still carrying her worn clothes to throw into laundry.

Zishan :siao ah? what’s wrong with you!

Jay :i…i…

I want to scream, to ask her why she got Amex card? Who give her, but i no balls to do it.

I’m angry, but more angry with myself than her.

People give her Amex sub card, what can i give her?

I only can sub a safra spouse membership card for her.

What right do i have to be angry?

Alan got the capability to give her Amex, why she cannot spread her legs for him?

Jay : i want to…

Zishan :tsk…haiyah…tired la…the acai delivery coming already…

Jay : not so fast…

I was literally begging, and i saw my wife look at me with that ‘i pity you’ look. It made me even more horny.

She must be thinking i very poor thing, very useless. She pity me, and she agree to help me masturbate. I want to have sex, but she say take it or leave it.

If i can give her Amex platinum, i will jit tao hold her down and have my way, but i don’t. What right do i have to demand?

I can only accept.

My wife phone ring, is office. She gestured for me to keep quiet, but i really very horny already. Keep touching her body and breast.

She frown at me, looking damm irritated and she pushed me, i never really fall but i just end up sitting on the floor.

Then my wife use her feet to rub my privates.

Her toes gripped the tip of my dick and she move her leg. Oh my god, it feels so good, last time she did this for me was a long time ago, she wear pantyhose, then her feet grip me like that. I no need 2 minutes i shoot all onto the stockings.

Her call ended, i finally can moan and make noise.

Zishan : wait la, i need to call my colleague.

She dialled 1st number,

Zishan : Siti, boss asking the print for…

Then 2nd number

Zishan : Tze chuan, tomorrow the…confirm right?

Note her feet still on my dick and i almost lying down on the floor already.

Then i heard the name.

Zishan : hello…Alan…Zishan here…Boss was suggesting…

I hear Alan name i immediately hot.

Jay : aHHhh…

I make noise my my wife frown, she look very angry but i held onto her right foot which clamp onto my erection.

She use her left to lightly slap me on my face but i cannot. i really cannot.

My wife, talking on the phone with the man that fuck her, the man that give her a sub card, while she use her feet to rub me? The anger, the heat, shoot immediately into my head.

Jay :aHHHHHH!

Zishan : The schedule is different from what the…

My wife look like she want to slap me. Like she very angry i disturbing her work. People doing serious things, i moan and moan in the background. You piss off or not?

Jay :ahhh…ahhh

I don’t know what Alan say , must be some private stuff on top of work because she giggle. Then she nudged me down onto the floor with her foot. My wife bend down and she take her clothes, the one she changed out of, she press her dress against my mouth but i push it away. I don’t want. Not enough. I pull her worn panty from the bundle she slap me with ehr free hand, she mouth the word ‘dirty’, but i cannot already.

My brain is going crazy. After a bit of tussle, she gave up, stuff her worn panty into my mouth, press her worn bra on my face and ask me to PCC myself.

Jay : mmmmmmmmmmmmmh!

When i shoot, i shoot all over my body as i listen to her giggle on the phone with Alan.

Jay : mmmmmhhhh!

Zishan :haha, yah, they always like that one…ok, if confirm then is ok, i’ll let boss know…haha…ok…

I was panting like i just finish 21km road march when my wife hang up her phone.

Zishan :tsk…you very irritating you know. people working , you make so much noise.

Jay : sorry…ahhh..ahhh…

My wife ‘tsk’ at me and left me on the floor, panty, bra, and her dress all bundled on my body.

Zishan :you wash for me i don’t care…

Jay : orh…

15 minutes later, the Acai bowl arrived. I saw my wife smiling and texting while i rinse and hang up her panty.

When i’m done, i went over to join her to share the Acai.

Zishan :got wash clean or not…will stain my clothes one you know…

Jay : got la…

I wonder if she got ask Alan to wash her panty, probably not. People got Amex power.

Jaytheuselessman

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13/11/25

Thursday

How much is a good class bungalow? I don’t know. I am still stuck in the era when i think if i win Toto 1st prize 1 million, i can retire and never finish spending my money. It’s true what, how to finish spending 1 million?

No meh? I wrong meh?

1 million, i put fixed deposit. 1 year 3%, then i 1 year spend 30000, i can shake leg already.

30000, 1 month 2500 you know. I buy my own van, i relax relax do a few jobs a day, go around singapore eat famous hawker food depending where i go to. Isn’t this the life? How can anyone finish 1 million?

My wife say 1 million not enough to buy HDB. I tell her she crazy. We after subsidy here and there, our 3 room BTO only about 230k. Sometimes i think she hang around property agent too much, see the money is few million few million, until her views towards money not realistic.

Or am i wrong?

2500 a month not enough to spend meh?

Even if i wack fish and seafood at cai fan every meal. Each meal 10, 1 day 30, 30 days, max, max, 1k. I still got 1500 extra.

I went to google the cheapest good class bungalow. Don’t have any conclusive results, i asked James, he screen capture a news article for me.

It was a sale for 44 million.

2% agent fee will be 880k. What the fuck?

Money so easy to earn?

I assume Alan sell the cheapest good class bungalow, maybe sell to the poorest billionaire. Say 10 million.

His commission is 200k?

Why?

Is there something wrong with the world we live in?

I deliver shit, rush all over Singapore, have to brave the weather, the traffic, and all the crazy people on the road. I one month maybe 3k plus. He 1 deal is my 6 years of pay?

How to fight against someone like this?

If you are my wife, you want to spread your legs for who?

You tell me?

Whose cock more worthy to go inside you?

You want who to pump you full tank? Delivery driver like me, or property agent like Alan?

No wonder can easily give my wife a sub card. I wonder if got spend limit, or she can anyhow spend. Like that if link to her grab account, i going to anyhow wack and order food and mala for supper.

Thinking of the difference in our pay, it really feels like a slap in the face for me.

I took a job at a food factory, for $125, i need to deliver tingkat meals to 11 locations. They are all within the same neighbourhood. I stack it with one other job. 3 hours later, i make about 140. I think that is the same amount Alan make when he go toilet and shit.

Today i sent James a whole fuck load of stuff, i one shot bomb him more than 90 whatsapp message until he call and fuck me.

James : can use email or not.

Jay: very hard to type email.

What you all read on his site, is he combine many different whatsapp message, sometimes voice message, then all come out together. If raw form, is whatsapp message. Sometimes if a bit longer in email, also max 4-5 lines. I cannot type long long essay. Only short messages, but he manage to get the gist of it so far. It’s like he can read my mind. I can’t say he got 100%, but 90% cannot run.

I know he can use AI to create a lot of things, i ask him to use my wife’s face to create sexy videos. He say cannot. I sent him links to those JAV gangbang one, ask if can put Zishan face in there, he don’t want to reply me. I really cannot take it anymore, i think i’m going mad. He whole day never reply me, i thought he going to stop entertaining me already.

He finally reply at night when i got home. I park the van, then go light up one stick near the washing bay.

I beg him to create a set of my wife’s face video and pictures. i soompah i will only use it to PCC. He finally agreed, on the condition that he change her face a bit with AI, so is not her, but 90-95% there. Also he make her long hair instead of short. I say ok.

I reached home at 9.30pm. I consider it a good day because i gross almost 300 with not much effort. Routes were all smooth, and i never really got caught in jam. Most important of all, no fuck up customers.

My wife was already back and first thing she said was to remind me about the BBQ gathering at her colleague’s place.

She want to know what i’m wearing.

Jay: need to wear jacket and tie is it?

Zishan : Tsk… you don’t wear your WWE t-shirt and berms i tell you.

Jay : then what i wear…

Actually, i say also is waste breath. She already decided what i should wear.

Black polo t-shirt from uniqlo, and a tan coloured berms. Then i cannot wear slippers, i must wear the onitsuka sneakers she bought last year at IMM sale.

I know what she going to wear, i saw the lululemon paperbag, i pretend i don’t know. Just teh siao.

Zishan : your stomach ache how? ok already?

Jay : ok already la…

Zishan :will you shit yourself or not? or later need to use people’s clubhouse toilet?

Jay :the clubhouse no toilet meh?

Zishan :where got people go other people place to shit one.

She asked if i need to wear the sanitary pants just in case and i just stare at her. Like she out to humiliate me further but instead of being angry, i find myself getting hard. Why like that? Maybe because i’m just so beta. i can only get hard when i think of my wife with a Alpha.

I just continue with my usual evening but she look like she going for a wedding. Prepare this, prepare that, don’t understand what is there to prepare. Just going for a BBQ only what, need to prepare what? Go there eat, smile, then fuck off.

I think a bit, then i suddenly realised something.

Remember i said Alan is attached, and that he is getting married next year.

His girlfriend is going to be there.

Finally i can see how she looks like in person. I got download her picture before but is very small and low resolution, can’t see properly.

Zishan ask me not to smoke at people’s condo the next day.

Jay :han nah…han nah…

Zishan :there, nobody smoke one.

Jay : ok ok…

I sent James a few more messages, then i went to bed early. My heart was still beating quite fast, i wonder how the BBQ tomorrow will be like.

How i will react when i meet Alan face to face, and how i will react when seeing Alan’s girlfriend.

Maybe i can make her my fuck buddy, then we call it even?

I laugh to myself at the thought.

If i can give her a Amex card, maybe got chance.

If not, i just continue dreaming. I’m going to rest early. I want to cheong and make more money on Friday before going for the BBQ.

People at night sleep is send lover goodnight message, heart shape emoji those kind of things.

Before i sleep, i send James a message, ask him when he can send me the fantasy stories and the AI picture of my wife.

He send me a middle finger.

Maybe he secretly AI Zishan and use it to masturbate, but is ok. I honestly rather it was James than Alan.

Jaytheuselessman

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14/11/25

Friday

I took jobs the night before and i woke up at 6am. Wash up, change and i cheong out already to a market in Bedok. From there, i cross island to Pasir Panjang. Then NUS, then i wack around science park area for a while before heading to bouna vista there. When i stop for lunch at Jurong east, it was already 2pm. I’m starving, only had a vending machine bread but i can feel the fire in my stomach to cheong, to earn as much as i can. My dignity is at a all time low, and only making a few more dollars can raise them.

This is singapore for you, you got money you head raise higher, if you don’t, then too bad.

Did a quick check, i already hit 200 for the day before cost. Quick lunch of mee pok, then i continue. Bukit Batok, to Ubi, to Macpherson, then Geylang. I promise my wife i’ll be showered, changed and ready to pick her at 6pm to go over to her ‘colleague’ place. That means having to end work early.

I reach home 5pm, quickly rush to clean up, dress but due to traffic, i still 5 minutes late.

My wife was waiting for me at the drop off point at Toa Payoh.

She was wearing lululemon leggings, new one, that one really bring out her leg and perky butt. The leggings is in green, but like pale green, not the bright kind, or is it blue, i can’t really tell but it’s a nice colour. Her top, she wearing white sports bra inside, that one whole world can see, because her outside top is white, a bit translucent and off shoulder. Wear lululemon must show off the bra strap and logo one, if not you might as well don’t wear. I think the sports bra is padded, because her breast look a bit bigger that day. There is something about office girls and lululemon, i like how they look, very sexy and got a bit of the slutty look. You look at them, they look back at you, like they’re saying i know you looking at my body. You stand behind them on escalator, they purposely move and adjust, like they know you looking at their butt. Zishan really look like she wear battle armor to go and fight Alan’s girlfriend like that.

She got touch up her makeup also, like she going into battle.

She gave me the postal code, i gps my way there.

Turning into the estate, peak hour, need to queue to register for entry. In front got Audi, got Mercedes, got Porsche, all the branded conti cars like no need money one. Jap car? have, we visitor is right lane to register at guard house, then left lane go in is for home owners, i can hear 1 jap car go pass my left.

GTR lor.

There’s only a handful of GTR in Singapore, maybe even lesser in Thomson area condos. If you happen to stay there, maybe you are neighbours with Alan. Maybe you can see my wife swimming there with him next time.

My van, the moment reach the guardhouse, i no need to even say we going clubhouse for party. He straight away open.

‘delivery park visitor lot’ go down left side. People car is decal from branded school, what SJI la, St Nicks la, ACS la. Sometimes in Singapore, you see other car the windscreen, the decals tell you more than the car itself.

Conti car see sart sart from afar, then when go closer, chey, got private hire stickers. If i have a choice, i rather have a jap or korean car, then then decal got ACS, got Raffles, got Hwa Chong. I low SES ah beng also can see this humble brag.

Aiyah, i know la, i talk so much, drive rented van, but i just want to say, why cannot? I also want to drive car with branded school decals, but i buay gan, i born into wrong family, cannot study, can only talk and kpkb about everything. If i born into right family, now i smelly also same level property agent as Alan. Maybe i’m the one fucking his wife?

Zishan : why you never tell him we here for party?

I don’t bother to clarify. I just turn in. Other people drive car have to give name and phone number, mine no need. My van got movers decal, got macdonald decal, even got petrol station decal from last CNY and national day. All free one.

Jay : Clarify what? we vip entry haha.

My wife roll her eyes at my low SES comment. I can tell she a bit unhappy i never say we came for BBQ under invite, and not here to deliver something.

Parked and this is where it gets interesting.

You visit a place you not familiar, is it need to try and find lobby? Need to find where to go? Look for signage right?

My wife no need one. I just pretend, follow her. So many lift lobbies, she immediately know which one go direct to clubhouse and BBQ pit.

Why do you think she knows?

Inside the lift, she text to reply a group chat to tell her colleagues she’s here.

You know what i saw?

No la, not Alan’s message or reply.

I saw something even more power.

I saw she connected to the clubhouse wifi already.

Power or not you tell me?

Go colleague condo, already have the WIFI for clubhouse, already know which lift lobby to go. If we go closer to Alan’s unit, i confirm she also connected to his home WIFI. Want to know if your wife has been to a place she say she never go before? Check her WIFI la, Singaporeans all very cheapskate one. Got free WIFI must definitely connect even though data plan now so cheap.

Last time i always wack the 99.99 telco plans, because i change phone always get the latest flagship. Sign plan more worth it. Now no need already, $28 a month, how i use also cannot use finish. Can song song stream netflix when i eat my lunch.

The BBQ pit is already busy when we got there.

Zishan : hey…all so early…this is my husband. Jay.

I smile, nod my head, said hello. I’m not the only husband there, there’s a few others, some with kids. This kind of function, is standard one. Awkward smile, small talk, everyone hide one corner and eat, then the office people talk. My wife went to chat with a colleague while i helped myself with food.

High class BBQ is different one i tell you. My friend move into EC, order BBQ express ownself BBQ treat us. Alan’s BBQ, got BBQ chef, got teppanyaki chef, then got a fucking prata station set up.

Can sell bungalow is really different, can hire prata chef make prata on the spot for you. Really rich people is pattern more than badminton.

Then the BBQ, not just satay, chicken wing, ketupat and otah. This kind of low SES BBQ they cannot eat one, theirs is yakitori skewers, then tomahawk steak. Got blowtorch somemore to bu bu bu the surface to char the meat. Got salmon, got the salmon head.

Teppanyaki side is cook scallop, prawn, even have lobster. I thought already very high SES then i saw at one side, small table got another young man open oyster.

KNN, i see already si bei hot. Rich people really is play different. I order oyster omelette upsize to $8 add oyster, i think i very big fuck already. People hire others to open fresh oysters.

No wonder my wife cannot resist open leg. How to resist living life like this?

Drinks got beer, got liquor, but no bartender la, DIY pour on your own.

I just wack the food, don’t care.

Looking around, i cannot see Alan, don’t know where is he.

About 7.30pm, Alan appeared with his girlfriend.

I know how Alan looks,nothing much to say. His girlfriend, fuck man, her breast so big. At least a C cup. When she walk, i can see the bounce one. He got such a good pair of breast to play with, then he interested in my A cup wife for fuck?

Alan’s girlfriend is Alicia, her body really is solid. Side view got the S-shape one. Front perky, back perky, if i bend her over, i confirm give her one time jia lat jia lat.

She is not some Ah lian or anything, when she speaks, wah lan eh, her English is like you listen to Channel news asia kind. Very classy, like English teacher talk to you like that. I know i confirm no chance with someone like that, i can only use my eyes to undress her.

I keep thinking of the things i want to do to her. Maybe whatever Alan do to my wife, i do back to her as revenge. Alicia’s dressing is very casual, like no effort kind, just plain spagetti top and shorts, is like she know her body is the armor already, no matter how many lululemon my wife wear, her figure still no fight against Alicia.

I want to take pictures of her to show James but i have to be careful. If i get caught by my wife then i confirm gone fuck. Have to go a bit further away, then i purpose position phone pretend i take picture of the condo and facilities, then slowly pan over. After that i casually check my phone and i immediately steam. Got a nice frontal view when Alicia was talking to someone, some part blur but her breast part, fuck man. This picture alone i can use and PCC don’t know how many times. Video is short, but good enough for screengrab.

Really don’t understand, your girlfriend this kind of figure, and you like my no breast wife. Maybe is his fetish. Zishan also very one kind, when Alan is talking to Alicia, she purposely go over, like want to ‘gek’ him, make his heart beat faster. Pretend friendly, take selfie together, i took a picture and i see already i laugh, the oyster almost drop from my mouth. One look that picture can see who got breast who no breast.

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The rest of the BBQ is boring, nothing much. Alan speak a bit, thank the team, thank the boss for opportunity. A bit like star awards those kind, lame shit la. This kind of industry always got award one, i think their office maybe hire 1 person, full time job is to think of award. Machiam like bait small kid to work hard kind. Wah, math pass? give you award, Wah, English never fail, give you award. Wah, finally pass Chinese, i give you award. Wah, all 3 pass, i give you another award. Then end of the year, give 1 award say among whole company, he got the most award. This kind ownself lick ownself balls, need people with thick skin then can accept, i cannot.

yes i admit, i not only buay gan, useless, wear green hat, i also not thick skin when it comes to things like this. That’s why i drive van, Alan drive BMW.

Alan also prepared a gift for everyone.

Gift leh, family and husband all got share. It’s a scent oil thing la, diffuser smell nice kind. Machiam like wedding favors. I helped my wife hold onto hers while she continue to mingle.

About 9.45pm, my wife carry some files and ask me for the Van key.

Zishan : give me the key, i go put something, give me the gifts also…

I never think much, i just pass to her.

Then i noticed Alan slipping away.

Use my cock to think also know something is wrong right. But i don’t believe they so daring. Everyone around, they what? hide one corner to fuck? cannot be.

I took the staircase down to carpark, then i hide and look towards my van. No they never do anything hanky panky, but Alan, took something from another car, not his BMW, is the SUV i saw at Grantral mall. Another big paper bag with a gift. He pass it to my wife then Zishan put everything together with the file in the van.

I quickly run back and pretend i don’t know anything.

Nothing exciting happen, 10.15pm, everyone start leaving. Those with families left first. Zishan and i left at 10.30pm

The stuff is at the back of the van, i waiting to see what pattern my wife will throw. Reaching Sengkang, she ask me to drop her off first. I know she want to hide the present, but i play dumb.

Jay : orh.

I dropped her, went to park the van and i went back up. The white paper bag is gone. The present is quite big, you go Takashimaya, you big big things, is the biggest paper bag they give, that kind of size. The gift itself is some rectangle plastic box kind, a bit transparent. i got catch a glimpse.

My wife’s brain is also one kind one i tell you. 3 room HDB flat, where got place to hide this kind of thing? Anyway, i just play dumb all the way.

At night, when she sleep already, i go to the shoe cabinet and dig a bit. Then i found what Alan gave her.

Immediately i get hard. Buy this kind of shit, buy for your big breast girlfriend, buy for my wife for fuck?

I ate too much , very bloated, i took some pictures and send everything over to James including Alicia’s pictures.

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15/11/25

Saturday

I need to make up for the earnings i loss when i was not feeling well, so for the saturday, i went out to cheong again. I woke up at 6am, made myself a 3 in 1 coffee and i start already. First job is not from the app, is from a regular customer in Eunos, i know him after picking up stuff a few times. Then he made me an offer, why go through platform, i earn direct. His timing also quite flexible, win win for both of us. He also no need to keep top up credit into platform and have money stuck in there.

Cheong work all the way until about 11am, my wife finally wake up, very good life. Can sleep until wake up naturally.

Zishan told me she going out to do facial, then massage, then maybe meet friends for dinner. She ask me settle on my own.

I said ok.

I slowly pick up jobs, no big orders, so i eat those food deliveries, small jobs but quick hit and run kind. 2pm plus i found myself in Chua Chu Kang, i called James see if he free to drink coffee. He’s at Tengah, but he’s not free. He will only be done about 3pm. It’s ok, never mind, i continue to pick up stuff until 3.30pm i’m at Jurong East. I tried James again but he on his way to Macpherson to grab some stuff because his sub con fuck up something.

Yah i know, i no life, no friend.

Actually i have friends, but my friends if i call them, is either drink, or they ask me go KTV for 1st happy hour slot, or hang flower, or go spa. I honestly don’t have a single friend i can call out just to have a normal meal or grab a coffee.

I got another order and i got to Toa Payoh at 4.30pm.

James is free for a quick coffee so i drove over to Circuit road there to meet him.

5pm, we drinking coffee near a singapore pools outlet, i jio James to buy 4D. I say i buy his car plate, see whether Heng heng will strike or not. I grab a few betting slip and pencil, then walk back to the coffee place. I shade like one stack, then James shade 1 single sheet.

He pass me $2, ask if i can help him buy. He wants to make a call.

I jit tao laugh.

Where got people buy 4D $2 one?

You want to bet, go big or go home.

Bet $2 might as well don’t bet.

I take his slip and i shade more, round off bet to $10. My minimum bet is $10. Already want to try your luck, don’t be such a wuss.

If i give the auntie my bets, then she see $202? what the fuck. I throw my face on the floor man. $2, make people give you change also troublesome.

I place the bet, total $210, if i strike, maybe singapore pool will close one outlet. haha.

I handed James his ticket and he gave me a shock look.

Jay :no need la…i top up.. you win you treat me.

He paynow me $8. Wah lau, kay gao meh?

We chat a bit, i got a lot of shit to tell him, i pour one shit load out, cursing and point here point there, the old people sitting around all stare at me but i don’t care.

He sit there and listen, nod, like some fucking therapist like that. After i curse Alan for about 15 minutes, i feel a lot better, but coffee also cold already.

He wanted to show me something on youtube, some non Alan related stuff, but some husband and wife talk thing, then he show me his phone, wah lan eh. Got to wait for 2 youtube ads.

He don’t even have youtube premium.

In the end i ask him forward me the link. I no need to wait for ads. I have youtube premium, netflix is also the highest tier, can stream 4k. Watch show on my 50 inch tv is damm shiok. I also have Prime, i like to watch Clarkson’s farm, also i have HBO. Spotify is family plan i share with my wife. The china app IQIYI, i also subscribed, inside got some nice shows. My subscriptions every month all add up, smelly a couple of hundred but it’s ok. I got no commitments, cheong one day easily come back already.

6pm, James needed to go and we parted ways. I wanted to ask him wait for the 4D numbers opening but he family man.

Best part of my day is 7pm, why? because i strike 4D. hahahaha. i don’t want to reveal how much, small sum la, but almost my one month takings. Damm fucking happy. No is not James’ car plate, its some unrelated number i thought off at Alan’s BBQ.

I was so fucking high in that moment i actually don’t mind Alan fucking my wife, but the moment was gone after a while.

I took another job, dropped off something at DHL building beside the KPE expressway there, quite near my place already.

I got home at 8.30pm, drink coconut water in the fridge, then went to shit. After that i donno why, i go to the shoe cabinet again to check the gift. It’s gone already.

I dig, dig around the house, it’s not there.

I went to check my wife’s bag, she brought out her gym bag, but her gym shoes never wear. I check her toiletries, her small travel pouch missing. Her makeup pouch from her office bag also missing. She take the sexy lingerie go where? Must be go and meet Alan la. He buy for her, so she can wear and let him fuck what. Think also know.

Totally no sound from my wife all the way. i also never tell her i strike 4D

Guess what, my wife reach home at 11.30pm.

I lying in bed scroll phone already.

Zishan : eat already?

Jay : ya…you?

Zishan : ya…

One look, i can tell she shower already. Women, shower already or not, easy to tell one. She come in, pretend put things a bit, then take towel, no choice have to pretend shower again if not i will get suspicious. Her makeup already remove and wiped off. Maybe Alan shoot onto her face, she have to remove makeup or something.

She pretend turn on laptop, login. I just play dumb and watch video on my phone. Then she send some email, then shut down.

Then she go into toilet.

I look at her laptop, it never shut down. It just went to update mode.

The bathroom door lock and i get up to read, it says downloading update , do not shut down. But got option to say update another time also. i went to click update another time then it just jump back to desktop.

My heart racing very fast, i turn to look at the bathroom. I don’t know if she just changing or going to shower. I open her drive and sort by last created and i saw the folder.

Folder name is Ascott.

Ascott is hotel at Raffles place there i know. I got send things there before.

My heart immediately like stop like that, i cannot breath. I open the folder and it’s empty.

Yes. Empty.

It’s already gone. Hidden somewhere. Really fast hand fast leg, but at least i confirm something. They hanky panky really got take picture and video.

My wife cannot wait to wear the present Alan give her. Must quickly wear and show him.

Show him not enough, must let him take picture, take video. Must let him see how slutty she can be.

This is the power of Amex sub card.

I want to see her in the slutty lingerie but how?

Then i remember. James is helping me do AI pictures so i can use it to masturbate. I will just ask him to put the lingerie on my wife, so i can see her in them.

Even better. i don’t want just normal plain background boring kind. I want context.

I told James i want to see her posing in hotel room.

In Ascott hotel.

I send James a whole shitload of message and requests.

In bed, i turn and hug my wife, the feeling come already. Think of her wearing the lingerie i sibei hot. I need to shoot already.

To my surprise she never reject me.

Zishan : what is it?

Jay : I got feeling…i want…

Zishan : again…you always got feeling

Jay :you so pretty…i see already cannot resist…

Zishan :tsk…ya i believe you…

Jay : hehe

I cup her A cup breast and squeeze then i press my erection against her butt.

Jay : ahhh…i cannot already…i need to go inside…please…

Zishan : is it? really?

She turn and face me.

She don’t wear bra in bed, and i can see her nipple a bit erect already. Like she waiting to be pinched.

I think is the money.

Money makes a man confident, it makes the man more sexy. Maybe she can sense i won money, but still it’s not as power as her AMEX card.

I pull down her shorts and i entered her. I hold her hand against the bed and thrust, i look at her face, see her frown, bite her lips and moan, i super high. Almost have the feeling of taking the money i won and throw at her slut face.

When i almost going to shoot, i cap on and shoot.

Jay : ahhhhhhh

After that, i lie flat, trying to catch my breath, can feel my heart almost shut down already. My wife pull condom off me, help me wipe, wet tissue. Wah, like VIP service, feels damm good. See, this is the power of money.

I really feel like king. Then Zishan drop bomb on me already.

I know it’s going to come, but i don’t know she going to drop it after i cum.

Zishan :dear…

Jay :ya?

Zishan :I go Thailand with my colleagues next month can? company trip.

Company trip? Lan par.

I can feel myself getting hard again, thinking of my wife go holiday with Alan. Confirm let him eat until nothing left.

Jay : orh…which date?

Zishan :really?

She hug me tight and kiss me.

Zishan : love you…

Jaytheuselessman

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16/11/25

Sunday

4 to 6 December. My wife is flying on 4th to 6th December. I was so tempted to paste her picture all over the internet. Since she is such a slut, maybe i can get all the men online to cum to her picture, shoot all over her face and then i compile it all into a collage and gift it to her.

When my alarm woke me up at 6am, i felt very weird. It’s uncomfortable, but i have an erection.

The idea that my wife is going on a holiday with Alan keeps repeating in my head. Like some monk chanting prayers like that.

Your wife going holiday with another man

Your wife going to let another man fuck her

Your wife going to suck another man

Your wife going to let Alan shoot until shoik

It just keep going on and on until i felt pain in my privates. I was so hard but so jealous and angry.

I looked at Zishan, she was still sleeping soundly. Looking at her body, i got the urge to fuck her again.

I went to boil water, make a 3 in 1 coffee then my eyes went to the gym bag sitting beside the laundry basket. I unzipped it, and i saw 2 plastic bag of clothes. I unwrapped it, there’s her swimsuit, the one Alan bought for her, towel, a white t-shirt. These are all wet and damp. She never even bother to wash and hang them up. Maybe she don’t want me to see them drying, maybe she will do it when i’m out.

I opened the other bag, i saw a white bra, then a baby blue panty tangled with a denim shorts. One look can tell it was taken off together in a hurry. Both are rolled into one.

Must be she cannot wait to service Alan’s cock!

I felt like a loser but i was too horny to care. I unwrapped my wife’s panty and i wrapped it around my cock and started to masturbate.

I closed my eyes and imagine i was Alan instead.

That i’m the successful man fucking another man’s wife.

I rubbed myself furiously but i end up getting more frustrated.

I can’t describe the frustration, it’s like i’m horny, i need to release, i’m hard, but i just can’t finish.

In the end i gave up and stuff everything back into the plastic bag.

I checked on Zishan before i left the house and took my first job. I don’t know why the fuck i took it even though the pick up is so far in Bedok. Sengkang, drive all the way to Bedok to pick up, then send to Serangoon. Don’t make sense but maybe because my brain was not working properly.

Anyway, i don’t have mood to work today. So i just covered the rental cost and fuel, then i called it a day.

Reaching home at 1pm, i saw my door and gate wide open. I paused a bit, is it she invite Alan up to fuck her?

But barely a second later, i saw my wife walking out with shoes and slippers. Got rare sun that day, she intend to sun dry her footwear after washing. She also put out some of her heels she just wiped with wet tissue to dry. I keep looking at the high heels, suddenly got the urge to ask her to wear them and let me fuck her. I tried to touch her she ‘tsk’ at me as if i’m crazy.

Zishan : go and shower…

Jay : orh…

Afternoon about 4pm, we went to Bishan to meet in laws, chill at their place for a bit before going for Tze Char dinner together.

She was on her phone texting throughout dinner. When my mother in law ask her if she’s busy with with, she say ya. Need to settle some email before Monday.

Talk cock. i can tell she is texting Alan. As usual, i just pretend i don’t know.

When i went to pay the Tze char bill, my wife chatted with her parents.

We sat on a table for 4, so Zishan and my mother in law sat side by side, their backs facing the Tze char counter. My father in law went to the washroom,so when i finish paying, i walk back, no one know i’m approaching because the whole coffee shop is so busy. I walk back and was standing close enough to hear them while keeping the change and receipt in my shoulder bag.

Then i overheard something my mother in law say to my wife.

MIL : I can make Ba Zham already? ( herbal tonic to sooth menstrual cramps)

Zishan : No need…

MIL : huh why don’t need?

My wife, still on her phone replied without looking.

Zishan : don’t feel the cramp yet…maybe another week.

MIL : huh ? i thought yours quite regular.

Zishan : tsk…how i know…

MIL : Is it got good news…?

Just then, my father in law came back, they stopped talking abruptly, and i took the opportunity to slide back into the seat.

My MIL looked at me for a while but i just act blur.

FIL : how much?

Jay : 80 plus…ok la, we got order fish and prawn.

MIL : so expensive…next time don’t order the fish…

Jay: aiyah…want to eat just order lor…

I don’t get old people.

Fish and prawn considered premium items, once in a blue moon, if want to eat just order. Usually i won’t, but maybe because i won 4D , i felt extra generous.

I’m excited to go collect my winnings at Singapore pools tomorrow.

But i’m also excited about the conversation my MIL and my wife were having.

No need Ba Zham? Meaning what? My wife period late?

Then what does this mean?

Her egg fertilised by Alan already?

Jaytheuselessman

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17/11/25

Monday

Have you ever gone to the Singapore pools main office at middle road to collect winnings? Haha. I bet many of you won’t have the chance to.

When you boast and tell people you win lottery, and need to go head office to collect winnings, it means one thing. You win more than 5k.

If is less than that, you just go to any booth around the neighbourhood to collect. Don’t go early in the morning ok, the auntie will fuck you. Why? Because they just open, their float also not a lot. Nowadays even uncle and auntie buy 4D want to use nets, where got so much cash?

Learn from my experience ok? First time i won 4D i won 4k, i 7 early 8 early head to NTUC the booth. I kena fucked by the auntie. Ok, maybe not fucked, she is employee of big organisation, just that she is a bit sarcastic.

‘So early…i don’t know have enough or not…cannot wait to collect is it?’

I that time only 22 years old, i hear already i jit tao shoot back.

Jay : An juar? wu dai ji bo? ( What ? got problem? )

With my helmet tuck under my arm, my half fuck ah beng face. I think the auntie think i want to beat her. haha. But walking out with 4k in cash it just feels so fucking good.

Heading to middle road, your feeling is different one.

Traffic is shit in the morning, but is ok. My heart is light, i feel good. People cut in, no signal, is ok. I smile. Usually i will middle finger, curse, sometimes i flick my cigarette butt at their car, but not today. Today i feel good.

I have a theory. Every fucking heading or worry you have in life, it’s all connected to money.

Money solves everything.

Don’t believe? Just look at me.

If i have money, my wife will let another man fuck her?

If i have money, i can give her amex card, she will open leg open mouth for Alan?

Money even puts me in a good mood.

When you good mood, everything is smooth, everything in life will flow.

No meh?

I parked my van, and went to one of the small street side cafe. No, i have not taken a single order that day. I’m too excited, i cannot wait to collect my money.

Breakfast set, 2 eggs, 2 kaya toast and coffee, what the fuck man. Like that from no brand cafe is already $5.90. Egg also so small. I finished it and still feel not satisfied. So i ordered Mee Rebus. One mouth in can tell is central kitchen shit. Mass produced rubbish but fuck it. I still finished it.

When i walk into the office, i feel like got air behind me.

Staff will offer me coffee, ask me take a seat.

She call me ‘Sir’

Wah lan eh, the feeling is damm good.

And the girl is sweet looking too, can tell she is from Malaysia from her accent. She is my type, same profile as Zishan la, slim, a big leggy, small breast.

She asked if i would like to consider a donation but i turned her down. She then help to process the collection. Very fast one. I drink coffee, look at her side view, she is quite cute but i no balls to ask for contact. I steal glance at her i also afraid. No balls is like that, also from the way i look, i don’t think she interested.

You pretty, young, sweet looking, you interested in a big and a bit fat guy wearing black WWE t-shirt with faded John Cena face? I look in mirror i also know to be ashamed.

Cheque collected, sent James a picture and told him i want to buy him lunch. He never reply. I dropped the cheque into the bank and went back to my van. On the seat, i shivered, like whole body shake like that, happens when you hold your pee for too long if you get what i mean. It was a good feeling.

I was about to pick up first order of the day when my wife called me.

Zishan : dear, can you go my mother place pick up the luggage. The trolley one, can bring up flight that one.

Jay : ok.

We have suitcase at home, but it’s those big type. The smaller ones we barely used. Go holiday, just pack big la, i don’t understand why people want to carry a small one up the plane. Check in everything, carry one sling bag across chest settled. Big bag, small bag, like going market like that for fuck.

I took a few orders and turned over to Bishan.

I called my in laws, my FIL ask me to go up. My MIL is not around, she is at the clinic across the road.

FIL : Ma going to buy lunch later, you want to eat?

Jay : No need.she ok?

FIL : flu…she waiting to get medicine, almost done. she ordered some fruits for you to bring back from XXXX, you wait a while. I go down find her.

Jay : ok

I didn’t think much, i took the ladder from the storeroom, then went to Zishan bedroom. Then i climbed up to pull the dusty suitcase down.

Then i suddenly realised something.

That is the perfect chance to snoop around my wife’s old bedroom.

I immediately went to the old study desk and opened the drawer.

I expect to find hard disk. I expect to find sexy photos of her sucking Alan’s cock or something but those are just fantasy.

Nothing of the sort. As if she will leave such things lying around.

But what i found was worse.

The small white medicine bag you get when you go clinic right, there was one tuck at the back.

I opened it and i saw contraceptives.

Those to be taken daily. It’s still brand new.

Why would Zishan get contraceptives, then never take?

Jaytheuselessman

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18/11/25

Tuesday

I want to add on some information about the contraceptives. Those were not bought in Singapore. They were bought from Malaysia Pharmacy.

It’s a smart move, like that the Singapore clinic will not have records. Every damm thing in the clinic, in the hospital, it’s all linked. I take blood test, whole fucking world of the doctors can see my blood test result. You think people don’t know you buy contraceptives? Some more the clinic Zishan goes to under the corporate plan one is a bloody big chain. She buy pills there, i think the whole office will know.

My brain is messed up. I don’t know what to think. I start to link back to past few weeks.

She got pills, then that’s why not afraid of letting Alan and me creampie her? Then if got pills, why never eat? Or are those extras? The ones she is eating she keep at home? No idea for me to know unless i ask her directly.

I offer to drive my wife to work today, she say ok. The clothes she wear today a bit revealing. Grey skirt, a bit short but not mini skirt kind. Maybe is because her legs are long. Then the top is long sleeve white colour, a bit of V neck. She got no breast so the V cannot see much valley but she got wear a white tube inside. I think the layering look very sexy.

While waiting at traffic light, i reach over to touch her thigh, rub rub stroke a bit. She never ‘tsk’ at me, just keep texting away on her phone.

Maybe she know she going holiday already, she will have freedom from her useless husband. Or maybe she pity me, let me touch her.

Zishan :green light already…

Jay : I know i know.

The car behind me tapped his horn.

Jay : KNN, fly over me la. CB…

Zishan :tsk…can you don’t like this or not…

I suddenly hot again. Like this meaning what? Hot headed? I drive van is like that one what. If i drive BMW, my temper will be better.

I don’t want to argue with her, i still in the strike lottery mood so i keep quiet.

I dropped her off at Toa Payoh then i went off. She say she will be coming back a bit late because she got dinner appointment with friends.

I log in to my internet banking, the singapore pools cheque has cleared. Money in bank. The feeling is damm good. The money also made me no mood to work. Some jobs that i will usually accept, i suddenly find them too lowly priced. I end up sitting at the loading and unloading bay of a HDB block and just scroll and scroll while i smoke. Before i knew it, i smoke 3 sticks in a row.

I called James again to see if he is free for lunch. He is, however he is at Expo. All the way at Tanah Merah. Damm far away. I’m at Ang Mo Kio. He will be heading to Suntec however to meet another client, but that is in late afternoon. So in the end, we settled to meet for coffee.

We are meeting at 4pm, but i got to Suntec at 1.30pm. Haha. no mood work is like that one, i parked and made my way to the arcade. I am a super VIP member so the number of tokens i get with each top up is a lot more.

My favorite game is the pearl fishery game. Maybe most of you won’t know. But the game is like dropping white balls into the machine, then if you strike, it will drop bigger balls, then it translate to tickets and points. It’s damm addictive i tell you. Without knowing, i spent like 400 within 2 hours haha but it’s ok. The kring kring kring sound like jackpot machines, hear already just makes you feel good. If only the arcade allows smoking. I can feel my craving for the nicotine hit me after the 2 hour mark, i cannot take it anymore, went out to smoke.

While smoking, i look at all the hot office ladies also smoking outside. Really i tell you, work in CBD and work in neighbourhood one is different level one. Their hotness is another level. My wife is pretty, but put her beside the town one, i tell you is no fight.

4pm

I met James for coffee at Yakun at tower 4.

I gave him some updates about Zishan and i bug him for the things he promised to help me do.

I told him i’m tempted to fly to Thailand to catch my wife in the act.

He can’t offer an opinion about that.

We chatted a bit but nothing exciting. I wished got more juicy news and updates but don’t have. I asked James is he disappointed there are no juicy updates. He just laughed.

James: only erotic stories got juicy updates everyday.

Jay : I want to tell you something very bastard one haha…i learn from you one…

James: huh ? don’t anyhow say ok.I never teach you anything.

Jay : I learn from your stories one…all the bastard things you do…hahah

I told him what i did in my wife’s room and he went ‘what the fuck’. His expression is damm funny.

James: which part of fiction do you not understand?

Jay : haiyah…try only mah…no telling if it will work…but i think it will…hahah…

James: you very cb you know…

Jay :Not as cb as my wife sleeping behind my back tio bo?

He got nothing to say to that.

I finished my coffee but i needed another.

Kopi gao, ka dai. Thick coffee, extra sweet. I need the sugar rush for the job, become habit already. James one is Kopi O Kosong, might as well drink drain water. I felt a bit hungry, so i ordered eggs and kaya toast also. I ordered for James and wah lan he fucking gek seh. He eat eggs just like that, no pepper, no dark or light soya sauce.

Jay :what the fuck… where got people eat like that one?

James: Me lor…i like.

We parted ways after another 10 minutes and i tried to pick up a few jobs to end the day, but unfortunately, i was not in the mood.

In the end, i went to a Tze char stall in Hougang, ordered 2 pepper crab and a bottle of beer.

When i reached home at 8.30pm, my wife is still not back.

I was about to head to shower when my phone rang.

It was my mother in law.

I saw the caller ID and my heart skip a beat.

Maybe the bastard thing i did worked.

Jay : Hello…Ma?

When the words left her mouth, i find myself smiling.

MIL : Jay ah…Since when Zishan taking pills? Why she never say?

Jay : huh ? what you mean?

She found the pills in my wife drawer. I never shift from original position. I put it back. I merely laid a path and led her to discover it.

How?

Simple la.

Sugar.

Sugar trail, window to drawer, the to the plastic bag. My MIL place, got plant, got spider, got a lot of ants always. The ants easily will pick up the trail.

Then my greatest reward from reading the shit James write finally came.

I know exactly what to say.

Jay :Ma…i don’t know…i don’t know what you talking about…You ask Zishan…

When she hung up, i sat in the living room and i burped. I can taste chilli crab in my breath. Then i laughed.

I really laughed.

i wonder what my wife will say when she comes back.

Then you know what?

20 minutes later my phone rang. It was my MIL again.

MIL : Jay ah…sorry i see wrongly. It not pills, is other medication…

She try to sell me a cock and bull story about her bad eyesight, she saw wrongly. Then she hung up.

Jaytheuselessman

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