Joan was a virgin until the night she married her husband James. She went from being faithful to 1 man, to sleeping with 26 men in 2025.
I first saw this sensualsingapore.com site on my husband’s browser history. I visited, saw that it had erotic stories and all, then i closed it. I didn’t think much of the site, nor did i really mind my husband visiting it. That was back in end 2024.
My husband James was retrenched 3rd quarter in 2024. He cooped himself up at home, and he was sort of going through a phase of self blame and probably a bit of depression. I thought he will get through it, i mean eventually, everyone does isn’t it?
You lose your job, take some time off , find yourself or something, then you apply again.
Unfortunately, that was not the case for my husband.
He went into a downward spiral, and every day, he just seemed to sink deeper.
Around christmas period in 2024, about 3 months after he lost his job, he was just sitting in front of the computer the whole day. He can literally stay at home, eat instant noodles and just surf the net, or play games, maybe watch some videos.
We are still talking, i tried to be understanding.
James : Just…give me some time…
Fine, i gave him time, and space.
And since i was curious what he was doing online all day, i went to the browser history again.
That bastard was spending his time online surfing porn, reading erotic stories. As if that were not bad enough, he has been buying erotic reads online from a variety of sources. What the fuck?
You’re not making money already, and you want to spend money on these?
I really feel like screaming in his face, at this age, do you have difficulty differentiating between needs and wants?
And yes, he has a subscription to this site as well.
I admit i was a little upset then, but not the point of flipping table or anything.
I dig deeper into what he was doing online everyday and you know what i found?
My naked pictures and videos.
Holy fuck i almost threw the desktop onto the floor.
Several GBs of my naked pictures, videos, some taken without my knowledge too when i was blindfolded.
Just to read everyone into our marriage situation.
We got married in 2022. Right after Covid. I was 24 then. We were considered young among our peers but James and i were together since University. With a bit of support from parents, we bought a 3 room HDB in punggol, we didn’t throw a banquet because hey, Post Covid safety is a good excuse for everything especially with all the different evolving strains.
There was a church ceremony, we said our vows, i love you, you love me, till death do us part.
James and i did not have sex during our dating days, there were plenty of kissing, masturbation, blowjobs and fingering but, no actual penetration.
So needless to say, after we got married officially, i was a little eager to try it.
Actual penetrative sex, i mean i’ve been holding our for so many years.
Then i was in for another surprise.
James, when it comes to proper intercourse, had difficulty getting hard. Initially i thought he was nervous, but as the months go by, i realised it was starting to be a problem.
He couldn’t get hard unless we were doing something sick.
Like taking videos, or photos of me naked, or dressed in some slut lingerie.
That’s how those naked and private videos come about.
Then there is the roleplaying fetishes, where James want me to pretend i’m having sex with another man.
I mean what the fuck?
Most men get jealous and looked ready to start a fight if anyone stares at their wife for too long out in the street, but my husband?
My husband needs to picture another man having sex with me before he gets hard?
Sometimes i go along with it, i’ll pretend.
I’ll say the things he want to say.
I’ll even pretend to call the names he want me to call.
Like when he’s thrusting into me, i’ll call one of his friends’ name.
Joan : erngh..ernghhh..yes Soon Heng…yes…yes Soon Heng..fuck me…fuck me Soon Heng..ernghhh…
Then sometimes, James want me to pretend and act like a slut, looking into the camera and pretending i was ‘performing’ for a live audience.
It’s like he get a kick from exposing me to other men.
It’s like the more cheap a slut he sees me, the more aroused and turned on he gets.
We quarreled a few times about this. This, this fetish of his, it’s not natural. Definitely not normal.
James’ dick size is what i would consider below average, i googled and sort of came to the conclusion that his is shorter and thinner, than the average Singaporean men.
8cm, not the shaft ok. 8cm, is from the very bottom base of his testicles, to the tip, and this is when he’s super rock hard. The shaft bit after taking away the testicles, only about less than 3cm left.
Girth wise, James is rather thin too. Thickest part is like 3cm at the bulb, then it tapers to maybe almost 2cm at the regular shaft.
Sex, can be a flashpoint for quarrels between us. I had to use a dildo to actually feel something on days when he was just not performing, or when he wants me to do some sick hotwife roleplay and i don’t want to go along with it.
I mean come on la, when your husband having sex with you, want you to call out another man’s name, you think that is normal?
It’s fine if my husband has a small tool, i accept it, i married him. It’s also ok if he has a cuckold fetish, i can tell, i googled, i read it up to try and understand it.
But you know the stupid thing about this whole mess?
James refused to admit it.
He refuse to admit he has a cuckold fetish, he just say sometimes it makes him high and gets him hard.
Come on la, if this is not a cuckold fetish, then what is?
It’s not wrong to have a fetish, but can we at least talk about it like adults?
Unemployed, not doing shit at home aside from surfing porn and reading erotic stories, and i find out he is sharing, yes James was fucking sharing my naked pictures and videos online.
Thank god he had the brains left in him to blur out my face.
Posting my pictures online is one thing, asking for cum tribute from other men?
Who the fuck did i marry?
There’s at least a dozen pictures of men ejaculating on their Ipad and phone with my naked picture in James’ computer.
I was so mad, that i confronted him right away.
He just stare at me, watch me scream, throw a tantrum then he said sorry.
James : i’m sorry…
That’s it.
I tell you, i almost want to stab him with the kitchen knife.
That night, lying in bed in the guest room, i had this crazy thought in my head.
Since my husband is not up to the task of satisfying me, why not give others a chance. Maybe he is already thinking about it.
He just don’t know how to say it.
I felt ashamed for even thinking that way.
For a girl that has been brought up well, goes to a good girls’ school, with good values and not to forget, guided by religion, i felt guilty with the kind of thoughts going through my head.
Then the final straw came that very night.
I woke at 4am, not used to the guest bed. Then i saw light spilling from the living room, or rather, from the computer tuck behind the dining table.
I opened the door quietly, peeping through the crevice.
And i saw James, back towards me, masturbating in front of the screen.
And on the screen, a gangbang video is playing. The female lead?
It’s me. My face, AI and superimposed onto the japanese chracter.
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and shut the door.
My heart was racing.
You want a hot wife, you want a slut wife that let other men fuck like a whore and use like a public toilet?
I’ll grant you your wish.
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